How did I get here?
How did I end up in a van full of sideshow freaks and burlesque girls? I wasn’t a part of this world—I wore suits and manipulated the public’s idea of needing.
I was neither artist nor musician, my wife made sure of that.
But there was something about her. I was attracted to her; less like a bee to a flower, more akin to a moth to the flame.
So I got in.
Work would understand, my wife would not.
I didn’t really understand it either.
Truth be told, I was just happy to feel something again. Something other than remorse and loneliness. Something other than resignation and defeat. Even fear felt better, at least when coupled with big blue eyes and a smile that worked more effectively than a cattle prod turned up to eleven.
How quickly and easily the unassuming romantic can be swept away by a soft pair of lips—wrapped up between the legs of an idea far more pure than any one person.
The moment I got in that van I knew; I had a lot of decisions to make—a lot of changes to contend with, save for one.
One choice was made obvious and clear, for once you jump down that dark deep hole you simply must chase the rabbit all the way to the bottom.
Jumping head first ensured I would fall, never once thinking about the abrupt landing waiting just below.
I was too busy feeling weightless to notice my stomach drop.
Just where were we going, anyway?